Frustration

Meaning; the feeling of being annoyed or less confident because you cannot achieve what you want. 

Feeling of annoyance that occurs when something doesn’t go as you expect. 

A deception or a disappointment. 

For the last few days “I feel” this feeling which I couldn’t explain. I kept asking in prayer and seeking to see if I could find out what it is.  Where it comes from and why I “feel” like this. 

Until I saw a pattern of behavior. That comes when I put expectation in people. Unconsciously I expect things to be different, just to see the same, manipulation, lies and compromise. Little by little I get dragged into it.  

Unknowingly, I slipped and there I was. Right away I was able to walk away, reassess the situation, come to fully  acknowledge my wrong. I took full responsibility for my actions, confessed  it, asked for forgiveness,  I kept quiet out of obedience and I listened. 

Just to realize I had been played. Weeks, months or perhaps years of waiting, had paid off, or so it think.  

I cannot change what took place. But I will make the best of the situation, the outcome won’t be what the enemy thought it might be. If God is allowing it to take place, then I will use the situation as a lesson. Nothing goes to waste. 

Guilt and condemnation try to hold me hostage. Fear tries to paralyze me. But I know better. I am able to recognize and see what is really taking place. God is going after my heart. 

I am allowing the Lord to show me my motives.  To investigate what may be lying dormant there. A split second of an unguarded tongue brought out anger, jealousy, greed, and mistrust. 

Dig into your reservoir of Faith. Bring forth the word in you that will heal you, restorer and set you free. We are not perfect; none of us are, let us learn from every that comes against us. Let us hold on tight to the word of God.  Take your stand, hold your ground. Make a testimony of your test it helps you grow. We are not perfect, but we serve a perfect God. 

“Encourage and rebuke with all authority, do not let anyone despise you” Titus 2:15

Ivette Diaz-Yee 

July 2024