Going Under

The water of baptism represents going under the waters and raising up in Christ. “I no longer live, but Christ lives in me” (Gal 2:20) A representation of a new birth. New beginnings, new season. The Lord had giving us this awesome opportunity to come to him with not pretenses, but out of obedience and humility. Is about staying focus in him, is saying no to the flesh and about saying yes to the spirit. Asking God to develop a six sense in us, so then in return we be able to hear him correctly and clearly. Watching in awe as he steel ourselves (to fill oneself with determination and courage) with determination to do his will for our life’s. Walking with determination the path designed for us. As we render (to make available) our hearts, our thought, our emotions to him. To be changed from the inside out. Breaking away from self-reliance, self pity, selfishness, comparison, and Jealousy. Strict application I do out of legalization instead of love. Self interest, following rules and mandates from the grays areas that still much alive in me. It mask itself as good but it’s the flesh in me. The areas no one sees. As I allowed God to go deeper in me I came face to face with a behavior an action an attitude and my response to others. The boasting of the flesh when I have the tendency to exaggerate a little. How the flesh like to impress others in the smallest way as how I carry myself, to be known, recognize and feel the applause of others. Coming from a deep desire to be accepted, the deeper root of abandonment. The lust of the flesh, they all come from the same root; pride. For I look at self and what I had overcome. The victories. From where the Lord had taken me. Mental illness, jail and morgue. Pride mask itself again and I want to help God. Instead of allowing him to do them. For deep inside I don’t have full confidence in him- to fight for me, to protect me, and to pave the way. Which in returns come from the root of impatience, for I think my wishes are been ignore. Going under had me, doing a self inventory, self evaluation. Exposing me. I will continue to expose myself to the one who love me and gave himself for me. I had seeing the power of God in our life’s. The revelation that comes when we yield to his calling and we align ourselves with his will. Never to be the same. Continuing to change and expose the secret areas of the heart. To be born of the spirit and to walk in the spirit. So I won’t gratify the sinful flesh. Going under it means to open yourself completely to the one who knows you the most. Saying yes here I am Lord. Do as you please. Clean me and make me whole. Today is the day, let me rejoice and be glad in it. Ivette Diaz-Yee August 2023