Which Way To Go

 Crossroads and Thresholds

There are times in our spiritual walk when we come to a crossroad—a new way out, new opportunities. In the natural, each road may lead to greener pastures, fresh possibilities, and new beginnings.

That happened to me many years ago—back in 2003. As I was preparing to enter a new season in my life, I found myself in a place where I had to make a decision: Would I continue on my road to healing and wholeness, or would I take one of the other roads ahead of me?

Coming home to my family and friends, having a place to live with my children, and even getting my job back with the company that had sent me on medical leave six months earlier—all of it seemed like a dream come true.

I had missed my kids. It was the first time I had ever been away from them. I was on fire for the Lord and learning to develop a deeper relationship with Him. It seemed like an answered prayer. Everything I had asked for in the natural was there: a place to stay, a job, my family, my friends.

But something inside me wasn’t at peace. Something didn’t feel right. Even though everything looked perfect on the outside, inside, I wrestled. Then I came across this scripture:

“Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it.’” — Isaiah 30:21

My life had been a roller coaster. I had walked many roads just to find my way back home. I faced detours. Life had derailed me. I had to make stops along the way to refocus, to find my way around the hurt and disappointment. I had allowed situations and distractions to hold me back. Fears and insecurities had imprisoned me. But in the midst of it all, one thing I never lost was hope. My hope is in the Lord. 

I’ve learned to cry out for help. To ask for direction, prayer, and support. I’ve sat with therapists, asked people to hold me accountable, and kept moving forward. Learn to surround myself with those with the same mindset and spirit.

Now, as I stand at the threshold of life, ready to take the next step, I’m stepping out in faith. My recovery is not just for me, but for the person who will receive help because I chose to recover.

Let’s be honest—we’re all recovering from something. Someone wrote on Facebook the other day:

“If you want something you’ve never had, you must be willing to do something you’ve never done before.”

It stuck with me. And today, the Lord called me awesome. I looked up the definition on Google:“Extremely impressive, amazing, unbelievable.”

And it’s all because of Him. So here I am…Stepping over the threshold!!!

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

 Ivette Diaz-Yee 

2/2020