Embriagada
I came into this concert with the expectation to meet God. A place where I could let my guard down and worship the Lord without bars or holding back.
We sat a few rows from the stage. I didn’t want to be distracted by friends I saw there. I have been cautious of myself. Me myself and God.
A situation with my daughter is affecting me because I am not able to see her. But I feel her pain, her anger, and her disappointments. She is like a flower dying in front of me and I am not able to do anything in the natural world. I had decided not to talk to her not because I didn’t want to but because I am trusting God for her and her family.
Tonight is all about me and the worship. I love #mercyme. For the last 20 years, their music has been my refuge and strength. The Lord used their music to bring solace, peace, and hope to my soul. Tonight, I won’t be disappointed.
As the worship continues I started to feel dizzy. I am drinking some water thinking I may be dehydrated I continue the worship. I feel hot and sweaty, I continue on, I came to meet Jesus here today.
The concert is almost finished, and the dizziness continues. How am I to drive home? So I asked the Lord, what is this? I feel drunk, I heard people getting drunk in the Spirit, and to my imagination comes pictures of myself being drunk and acting stupid. I don’t like that word. Give me another word Lord, trying to find another word I said the word in Spanish Borracha, the same happened this time, I had a picture of my uncles and family all being drunk and acting stupid. Still don’t like that word.
I am asking the Lord to help me, I still had to drive home. To all this my husband doesn’t know anything yet as we made it home, I needed to find out another word, and a Spanish song came to mind, the word Embriagada surfaced in my spirit.
I looked up the word to find out the meaning
- losing yourself
- Drinking too much off
- Captivated
- Fascinated
- Ecstatic.
I like what I am reading, yes for the 1st time in my life I was able to let myself go. Lose myself completely by drinking too much of His presence. I was captivated by His presence. I came thirsty and He filled me up by bringing me under and pulling me out, then I found a song “sumerge en tu presencia “ which I had been playing for weeks now.
When we come to God with expectancies in our hearts, He will meet us there.
This concert will forever be in my memories for I came thirsty and the Lord gave me the living waters to drink.
Ivette Diaz-Yee
#mercyme concert.
