Place Call Home

I still remember the words my husband said as we drove around a late Sunday afternoon. “Do you trust God?” His tone was scary and firm, I knew something was going to happen and changed our lives for ever. I said “If He is allowed to happen, He would see us through”. Was what I said, holding my breath and expecting his answer. The landlord is selling the house. We have 30-60 days to moved out. I stood silence for what it seems a long time. For the last few months I had asked if he was going to take advantage of the market and sell his property.  We had been there for 12 years. No it was his answer, every time I asked. We had pushed ourselves to paid off my new car. Since I had been driving ugly Betty a 27 year old Oldsmobile. Which literally was breaking on me. We only had one month to paid it off. My husband had always wanted a Tacoma truck so before we make the purchase, once again I had gone to landlord and asked “are you selling” No you would be he 1st to know. We went and purchased (finance) his new truck. A month later right before Mother’s Day I was told by my husband that we had to moved out. I felt my whole world coming to and end, how we would do this? Do we have the savings to pull this through? Are we going to be able to find a house in  this market? So many questions. I felt numb. Frozen. I could feel fear, anxiety creeping in. As we prayed. We came with a plan. The following Tuesday at my ladies group I told them what it had taken place. To hear them giving me referrals,  connections. I also heard my own children’s telling us, you can’t pack and move in 30 days, you’re crazy if you think that is going to be possible. Get ready for be taken advantage,  the market is hot. Be ready for bidding war. You are going to over paid. The next day I had a medical appointment in which due to my level of anxiety my doctor recommended for me to see a psychiatrist and even putting me on medication. Which I refused. All I heard was Crazy. Every one was throwing that word at me. Little that they know. I had been fighting the system for 20 years. Due to my family lineage, mental illness run deep in my family. One uncle committed suicide and another aunt is under medication and even been in mental institutions. My sister and niece they both had mental breakdowns. So when I heard psychiatrist all I heard is you are crazy. As I came home or what had been our place for the last 12 years I heard in my heart the Lord saying “I have your home all you had to do is find it “ and yet at the same thing another voice whispering and laughing “yeah try to find a house in this market is like finding a needle in a haystack”. (The Lord speak to your heart the enemy whispers in your ear) I had to closed myself to everyone and everything around me. Working full time, trying to find a realtor every thing all happening at the same time. I felt like I was inside a tornado, all around me was spinning out off control. But God. He kept me under the wings of his protection. He send a pastor friend my way to hear me and to listen to my cry, my fears, my anxieties.  I walked out of her office. Ready to confront the storm. Next day I found a mortgage broker who put me in contact with a realtor. Few times during that week, I visited few homes, other times that an offer was taking place. One night after we finishing driving around looking a new listing, we made few changes on our “demands” (my husband) we not longer where looking for garage or 2nd bathroom. Once we let go of the wants the Lord provide for us the place we were to call home. As I am driving to see the house The Lord said “claim it for is yours” as I drove to the house I said that “this is it, do what ever you need to do to get it “ what happen if they increased the price ? Then it isn’t for me. Are you going to look around? “I don’t need to” I heard myself saying. For I know the Lord himself had picked the house for us. So far he has make a way for the landlord to give us 6k, something about he saving our percentage for the years we had lived at his place. That took place on Monday, Tuesday we had a phone call from our realtor, they had accepted our offer. The other buyers had pull back. By the Grace and mercy of God. The help from my core, we moved exactly 45 days later. The Lord provided for us. He said “it’s about time Ivette, this is the fruit of your faithfulness”. When we allowed God to work for us, we work less. In the economy that we are. We were able to purchase a house, at incredible price, get extra money so we could start our new life’s in our new home. We had consecrated to the Lord. My office had become the headquarters for my Intercesory prayers.  The Lord said  “Trust Me” and we had. We look at Gods economy not at world economy. The Lord provided for us and He would continue providing.  Thank you Lord for your faithfulness and your grace. Ivette Diaz-Yee June 23, 2021

Emotions

For our struggles is not against flesh and blood, But is spiritual. Eventhough it may feel, physical, it startes in our minds by words spoken to us. It takes hold of our emotions and plays out the scenario over and over. It goes after our must humanity because attacks our heart: it uses Our emotions and plays trick with our minds, replaying the scenario over and over, playing the words at loud,like an old record player: slow motion, piercing our souls, breaking the heart. Building pictures inside our thought and imagination Emotions according to google "are mental states brought on by neurophysiological changes, variously associated with thoughtts, feeling, behavioral responses, and a degree of pleasure and displeasure". We identify them by our emotions state as, happy, sad, disgust, fear, surprise and anger, and many more. By not mean I am an expert on them at least not as prophesional. But I had my fare share off them. its is one of the trick, the enemy uses to hold me back. To keep me prisioner and captive off my own though. They mascarate as reality, they feel real and it hurt deep inside, I cry and wonder, and I ask myself why? They are more than 25 patters of emotions that dictates our behabiour. The Lord gave it us, because it will help us and allowed us to sence when something is "a miss" when it doesnot "make sence". it give you goosponse, when something is wrong. It prepares you for what to come. At times it allowed us to hear the words that are not spoken, because it hightlights a behavior. This pass week I had to hear words spoken thru some one that cames from some one else. Word expressing all the wrong I had done, according to them. "I dont listen or paid attention, I dont follow instructions or do what thet expected off me. I dont know how to take care of, my own flesh and blood." I recognize the pain it causes for him to speak those words. I saw the justification, they reasons, and the excuses made. Words once said it can not be taken back. Its like a hammer hidding a nail in the wall once it come in, we coudl removed it, but the damage done to the wall it be there, until we fix or patched up. Our emotions are natural they come, is expected to feel the way we do, we play with it , we wonder what I could done different and we build imaginary castles and web in our minds. If we allowed it would control us, it will grow unto resentmet and anger, discuss and revenge. Emotions plays a very important part in our lifes, making us who we are, but we can not allowed them to run wild and take control off us. Yes its ok to scream, cry and dwell on it, but dont stay on it, because it will rob you of peace and steal your happiness. Leaving every one else around you in shadows. It has been only few days since that dreatful day. what the enemy ment for wrong The Lord will changed it around. What was given as a parting gift (consolation prize) , became a departing (to leave especially in order to start a new journey) It has been a released God will use everything for His glory, the Lord did this, He allowed to happen, he removed me from my commitment. He is preparing the way. They choose to let me go, but the wind that knocked me down gave me wings to fly. As The Lord showed me the other day, we pray for this things to happen and them when he opens the door, we dont like the way is open because we dont want to get hurt. little we do know that this situation is shaping my future. The agony, the labor pain, gets forgatten once the baby is born. it is the price we had to pay in order to give birth something new. Today I choose to find refuge under the wings of the almighty, He comforts my soul, he takes my emotions and bring them under control. This too may pass. I guard my heart, my mind and emotions I am learning to keep them under control. I will not allowed what was done out of anger, and control to destroyed , delay the plans The Lord has for me. and in everything that I will do I will set an example by doing what is good. " Titus 2:7. I will stay alert and will always be in prayer. I got hid bellow the belt, I got bruise and send away, But I am not alone for God is with me. Ivette Diaz-Yee

Worship

 Worship

“It's not a song but a lifestyles”

 

It hasn’t been easy to write this devotion today. When the Lord gave this word as part of my victory words for the year, I thought He must be joking, specially after the week that I had. 

It make me realize we are in spiritual warfare , but God has prepare us for what we are going thru and experiencing today. 

As I look at the word again I see it different ; for I see WAR-SHIP 

Today we are inside the warship, ready, prepare and  trained for battle. As we lift up our anchor of faith, we allowed God to move us, where he wants us to go. It may look similar and familiar, but don’t be taken by surprise, we are going towards something new. 

So as the children’s off Israel did every time they went in to battle, prepare yourself, find your battle cry and move forward worshiping the Lord of Lord and the king of kings.  

Worship is not a song but a way of live. It’s part off your every day. Worship can push your destiny, and cleanse you of your past. Worship also brings healing to the soul and breaks generational curse. So today worship God with everything you had. 

Psalms 34:8

“Taste and see that the Lord is good” 

Embriagada

 Embriagada 

I came into this concert with the expectation to meet God.  A place where I could let my guard down and worship the Lord without bars or holding back. 

We sat a few rows from the stage. I didn’t want to be distracted by friends I saw there. I have been cautious of myself. Me myself and God. 

A situation with my daughter is affecting me because I am not able to see her.  But I feel her pain, her anger, and her disappointments.  She is like a flower dying in front of me and I am not able to do anything in the natural world.  I had decided not to talk to her not because I didn’t want to but because I am trusting God for her and her family. 

Tonight is all about me and the worship.  I love #mercyme.  For the last 20 years, their music has been my refuge and strength. The Lord used their music to bring solace, peace, and hope to my soul.  Tonight, I won’t be disappointed. 

As the worship continues I started to feel dizzy.  I am drinking some water thinking I may be dehydrated I continue the worship.  I feel hot and sweaty, I continue on, I came to meet Jesus here today. 

The concert is almost finished, and the dizziness continues. How am I to drive home? So I asked the Lord, what is this?  I feel drunk,  I heard people getting drunk in the Spirit, and to my imagination comes pictures of myself being drunk and acting stupid. I don’t like that word. Give me another word Lord, trying to find another word I said the word in Spanish Borracha, the same happened this time, I had a picture of my uncles and family all being drunk and acting stupid. Still don’t like that word. 

I am asking the Lord to help me, I still had to drive home. To all this my husband doesn’t know anything yet as we made it home, I needed to find out another word, and a Spanish song came to mind,  the word Embriagada surfaced in my spirit. 

I looked up the word to find out the meaning 

• losing yourself 
• Drinking too much off
• Captivated
• Fascinated 
• Ecstatic. 

I like what I am reading, yes for the 1st time in my life I was able to let myself go. Lose myself completely by drinking too much of His presence. I was captivated by His presence.  I came thirsty and He filled me up by bringing me under and pulling me out, then I found a song “sumerge en tu presencia “ which I had been playing for weeks now.  

When we come to God with expectancies in our hearts, He will meet us there. 

This concert will forever be in my memories for I came thirsty and the Lord gave me the living waters to drink. 

Ivette Diaz-Yee 

#mercyme concert. 

My Prayer Shawl

“Bring forth your prayer shawls” this morning as I came to sit, He spoke those words into my heart. 

I have this beautiful prayer shawl that a friend brought me from Jerusalem.  I have had it for a few years already.  Hanging in the office, it stays as an ornament. It pleasing to the eyes. 

Today is the 1st time I am able to really bring it out, I wrapped myself with it and allowed myself to learn the true meaning behind it.  Little do I know that it has a name. It’s called a “Tallit” used by the Jews rabbi or Jewish man.  I started my quest in google. I found few people and how they gave me their own interpretation.   Marilyn Hichey calls it a “super natural mantel with the White and blue representing the Holy Spirit present with us and the purity of God”.  Okay,  I accept that. 

Google to the rescue one more time. I looked up the high priest garments. (Which to me it’s a representation of our armor of God.  Ephesians 6:13- The Turban = the helmet of Salvation, shoulder piece=the breastplate of righteousness, Sash= Belt of truth , but that’s for another study, )

I must continue, with the help of my favorite gal "google" trying to find something else. I’m missing something but I don’t know what it is.  Then I found  these guy from “Happy Tabernacle and He explained it as a tool that God has given us; a closet: being covered by a prayer closet, enhancing our prayer life, speaking to God without distractions “ This guy gave a scripture. I like Him ..!!!! people could deny you but not the word of God. 

Numbers 15:38... “throughout the generations to come you are to make tassels on the corner of your garments, with a blue cord on each tassel. (V.39) You  will have these tassels to look at and so you will remember all the commands of the lord , that you may obey them and not prostitute yourself by going after the lust of your own hearts and eyes.  (V.40) Then you will remember to obey all my commands and will be consecrated to your God “ Okay, something about 4 grabs my attention, but I need something else. 

I’m praying looking all around.  A few hours have passed,  I call my Jewish friend (since I trust her) to help me, but no, she is busy. I know God is working something in me. 

I’m a little apprehensive, I don’t trust everyone or everything, it comes from the spiritual abuse I suffered which The Lord is using this quest for me to heal.  Like pastor Bob said “I want to be a Voice not an Echo” 

Finally I find this teaching on “The Tallit”  by Dr.Terry Harmon.  There is something about this guy I like. You guys have to watch and listen to how He explains and brings forth scripture after scripture. Again, He brings me back to Numbers 15:37-41 

Listen to him back and forth taking notes. Asking God for my personal revelation. I’m done. I could feel his presence all around me. I’m praying   And ask for forgiveness for what had held me back from to many people. Trust, I need to trust again.  Not everyone is the same.  I’m asking The Lord to removed from deep inside the seed of miss trust and to heal that area in my life.  And that's when it happened.  The Lord reminded me of the 4 corners of The Tallit and a scripture “ I have longed to gather you together as a hen gather her chicks under her wing” this scripture is found on  Matthew 23:37 and is The Lord Jesus Christ crying over us. 

He spoke to my heart about the fourth corners on the Tallit.  I held on to them and continued to pray. I don’t know what was coming out, because I have learn to let him lead me on my spiritual language, I don’t know how long I kneel in His presence.   He spoke to me about the 4 corners of the world, (Isaiah 11:12)from North to South from East to West. Four representing creation and world. 

He allowed me to see how this Coronavirus Covid 19 has brought us together.  Today this scripture has been fulfilled in our own eyes, The Lord himself gathers us under His wings.  We find refuge in the shadows of His wings (Ps 36:7

I’m undone, I no longer live but Christ lives in me. 

I finished my time  with The Lord with communion; together, alone, special and powerful. 

The Lord met me on our 1st 5 days of prayer, fasting and communion. I can’t wait to see what he would have for us tomorrow. 

 “Open your mouth and I will filled it” Ps. 81:10

 

Blessings 

Redesign Your Armor

 

Re-redo

ReDesign- design again or in a different way. 

God has given us a full armor which we find in Ephesians 6:13-18.  We all are very familiar with this scripture but do we really know how to use them.??? 

I’m always asking the Lord, why was fashion the way it was?  His answer blows my mind. “It was fashionable for those times and what was available and familiar for those that were living in those times.  Times and places.”

I took upon myself to learn and study a little more about the armor of God. I was told I need to go back to the drawing board.  To really understand the meaning of each piece and to know what was given to us.  The first words I came across PUT ON.  An action is required, take action.  Spiritually we need to put it on.  There were times when instead of putting on I was dragging it along. Forgetting it or leaving it behind. 

What I’m going to write is what I have learned about Puttying on The Full Armor of God.  

Take every word and give action to each and one of them.  Visualize what your doing. Recognize the battle you would be confronting.  Make sure you bring the right equipment to the battle ahead.

Again I asked the Lord, “Why it is that all these people are praying and honestly interceding ,but they don’t get the results they expecting? “Because they go to battle with the wrong equipment". 

What!!!! Explain it,  Lord make it simple for me I asked.  “We have a 5 alarm fire going on...the whole building is in flames, the help you are expecting is coming in, running in to the fire we see a whole group of doctors, nurses, medical technician, all running in fully equipped and trained to the work, but at the wrong place and that is what is taking place nowadays.  We are going around fighting this battles with the wrong equipment. 

Now take your time and let’s do this together.  Let us learn how to utilize the tools and the armory that was presented to us.

1st The Helmet 

        Protects your head. Your mind which is the battlefield of the mind. Where your thoughts 1st take place. Covers your ears and depending on the battle shields your eyes with the protective shield.  Ask God to open your eyes to see things for what they really are and to hear the unspoken cry. 

2nd Breastplate

          Guards your heart. The heart could be very deceitful down wicked and only God could comprehend and only God knows the motives of it. 

3rd Belt of Truth

          It is your stabilizer, holds you straight and firm, able to understand and recognize the truth that comes from the world of God.  Don’t let anyone fool you with empty words.

4th Feet Ready 

         With the readiness that comes from the gospel of truth the ability to change them depending on the battle and the terrain you are walking in.  Boots on the ground, running shoes,  stilettos to sandals, let His light show you the way. 

5th Shield of Faith 

         Not just to protect you from the many arrows the enemy is going to send your way but also as a shield as we walk to help our brother or sister in need,  able to protect and shield them until they too recover their strength. 

6th Take your Sword 

       Which is the word of God. Planted in your heart so we won’t sin against him. Able to penetrate even the deepest marrows of the heart. I have also added a dagger for those times when we know we are encountering a closed encounter,  when it becomes closed and personal. 

God wants us fully equipped and fully trained. 

Every single morning before I leave my house I read and readjust my armor.  Many times I do a check up on it because I know fully well the enemy is watching and waiting for the right opportunity to come in.  He does not need a door but a crack.  Inspection is required at all times. 

Be blessed my sisters and if you feel this help you feel free to share. 

Love