Hopelessness

definition: having no expectation of good or success, despair, feeling hopeless and alone.

Suicide is selfish for only thinking of self, it focuses on the past. Highlights the mistakes made. The regrets. The what ifs of life. Compares ours now with others around us. It makes us think it’s the easy way out. It's the way we try to put an end to a life lived in agony, despair, shame, and guilt. It plays with our minds and makes them seem that is the only way. The pain we carry is so heavy, it has taken our will to live. We are tired of trying. Over and over we enter the hamster wheel to end up in the same place. How do we get here? We ask, over and over. We rationalize the lies we had believed. “It will be better without me, one less problem for the family. Life for them will be better if I am out of the way”. Those were the words I heard that night, as I looked into the mirror and I saw death looking right back at me. Whispering to take the blade and cut my veins. Shame had robbed me, addiction had me bound. I didn't have the strength. I had tried to stop many times. Moved away, but in reality, all I had done was changed my zip code. Little did I know, I was full of hurt, abandonment, and unforgiveness. That night I was saved by my daughter knocking down the door from the bathroom. I do remember taking the blade and going directly to my veins, but I don't remember anything else. To find out years later, The Lord had an angel holding my hand. I was selfish. I was just thinking of myself. I was hopeless. I was lost. This is the 1st time I share this deep personal experience hope it helps someone else. You are not alone. You have a community to help you just reach out. In your agony cry out for HELP to the one that could hear you and heal you. “In my distress, I called to the Lord, and He answered me. From the depths of my grave, I called for help and you listened to my cry”. Jonah 2:2 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 Ivette 6/19/23

The Year Our World Changed.

The year our world changed. Christ.Over.Virus & Infection.Disease Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous Do not be frightened, And do not be dismayed For the Lord your God is With you whenever you go” This was the first off many scriptures the Lord gave me when this pandemic started. I was taken out off work 3/20/2020. I was in the process of writing “My personal walk to Gethsemane,coming face to face with self and life in this current world.” Preparation for Passover. Everything around me was changing. The words that where coming out off the news; Pandemic-an outbreaks affecting an exceptional high proportion of the population Lockdown- people must stay where they are Isolation- separated from others. Well plan strategically, powerful and effective. That my opinion off it. Little by little I whiteness how our states were closing down to prevent the spread off it. I asked the Lord what I am do to. Saturated your self with my word. Anchor yourself to the scriptures. Saturated-holding as much water or moisture as can be, absorb; throughly, soaked. God has been preparing his people for a long time. It is writing on Amos 3:7 “The Lord God will do nothing without reveling his secrets to his servants the prophets”. He has been talking. But we had been too busy, distracted, overwhelmed, tired, to even pay attention. Until now. I walked outside and I came face to face with panic, fear, greed. People running around over buying groceries. C’mmm to run out off paper toilet. Hundreds of people at the supermarkets, I came in to buy some chicken am I find this little old lady confused because she need it a whole chicken in order to make her soups. Scare, alone...talking to herself. I said to her, you be fine sometimes we had to learn different ways to make the same thing, took my time to explain how she could still make her soups without the whole chicken. For one second her fears left her. I walked away knowing in my heart; The world the way we knew it’s never coming back. But Jesus Chris is. Hopefully we had learn, prepared and able to recognize the trick of the enemy. We ought to be vigilant and ready. For we are living very darks days. let this be a lesson for all of us to learn. Ivette Diaz-Yee March 2020

Rejoice

definition: -show great joy and delight -jubilation -triumph -joyfulness Re-concerning, regarding Joy- great pleasure and happiness Rejoice is been able to look at situations around you and know without a shadow of a doubt and in your heart that God got it. If is happening is because The Lord had allowed and he knows you could handle it, and you will learn from it. No matter how it may look in the natural, no matter if it doesn’t make sense; specially if it doesn’t make sense. You don’t let anything or anyone to steal your peace and your joy. In the mist of all you raised up a hallelujah for the Lord. When we learn how to honestly rejoice in the Lord it changes our posture, it changes in how your see the situation, our attitude changes and even our behavior improves; because we had kept our focus, we had learn to discipline ourselves and we had stood our ground. So today put on Jesus. Put a smile on, and don’t give the enemy a foothold. For what the enemy has ment for wrong our Lord is using it for His glory. Don't lose heart for outwardly we are been crushed but inwardly we are been renewed. It's an important and necessary lesson we are learning. So my dear, cry if you had to. Express yourself to The Lord, ask questions, guard your heart, mind, and emotions, and play some good old worship music. Lift up your hands to our Lord and rejoice. For the joy of the Lord is your strength. Psalm 30:11 “You turn my wailing in to dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothe me with joy” so Rejoice in the Lord always. Romans 5:2b “We rejoice in the hope of the glory of God” Ivette Diaz-Yee 12/2021 Finishing Strong sisterlovedbygod.net

Emotions

For our struggles is not against flesh and blood, But is spiritual. Eventhough it may feel, physical, it startes in our minds by words spoken to us. It takes hold of our emotions and plays out the scenario over and over. It goes after our must humanity because attacks our heart: it uses Our emotions and plays trick with our minds, replaying the scenario over and over, playing the words at loud,like an old record player: slow motion, piercing our souls, breaking the heart. Building pictures inside our thought and imagination Emotions according to google "are mental states brought on by neurophysiological changes, variously associated with thoughtts, feeling, behavioral responses, and a degree of pleasure and displeasure". We identify them by our emotions state as, happy, sad, disgust, fear, surprise and anger, and many more. By not mean I am an expert on them at least not as prophesional. But I had my fare share off them. its is one of the trick, the enemy uses to hold me back. To keep me prisioner and captive off my own though. They mascarate as reality, they feel real and it hurt deep inside, I cry and wonder, and I ask myself why? They are more than 25 patters of emotions that dictates our behabiour. The Lord gave it us, because it will help us and allowed us to sence when something is "a miss" when it doesnot "make sence". it give you goosponse, when something is wrong. It prepares you for what to come. At times it allowed us to hear the words that are not spoken, because it hightlights a behavior. This pass week I had to hear words spoken thru some one that cames from some one else. Word expressing all the wrong I had done, according to them. "I dont listen or paid attention, I dont follow instructions or do what thet expected off me. I dont know how to take care of, my own flesh and blood." I recognize the pain it causes for him to speak those words. I saw the justification, they reasons, and the excuses made. Words once said it can not be taken back. Its like a hammer hidding a nail in the wall once it come in, we coudl removed it, but the damage done to the wall it be there, until we fix or patched up. Our emotions are natural they come, is expected to feel the way we do, we play with it , we wonder what I could done different and we build imaginary castles and web in our minds. If we allowed it would control us, it will grow unto resentmet and anger, discuss and revenge. Emotions plays a very important part in our lifes, making us who we are, but we can not allowed them to run wild and take control off us. Yes its ok to scream, cry and dwell on it, but dont stay on it, because it will rob you of peace and steal your happiness. Leaving every one else around you in shadows. It has been only few days since that dreatful day. what the enemy ment for wrong The Lord will changed it around. What was given as a parting gift (consolation prize) , became a departing (to leave especially in order to start a new journey) It has been a released God will use everything for His glory, the Lord did this, He allowed to happen, he removed me from my commitment. He is preparing the way. They choose to let me go, but the wind that knocked me down gave me wings to fly. As The Lord showed me the other day, we pray for this things to happen and them when he opens the door, we dont like the way is open because we dont want to get hurt. little we do know that this situation is shaping my future. The agony, the labor pain, gets forgatten once the baby is born. it is the price we had to pay in order to give birth something new. Today I choose to find refuge under the wings of the almighty, He comforts my soul, he takes my emotions and bring them under control. This too may pass. I guard my heart, my mind and emotions I am learning to keep them under control. I will not allowed what was done out of anger, and control to destroyed , delay the plans The Lord has for me. and in everything that I will do I will set an example by doing what is good. " Titus 2:7. I will stay alert and will always be in prayer. I got hid bellow the belt, I got bruise and send away, But I am not alone for God is with me. Ivette Diaz-Yee

Uncharted (non-mapped)

“If you let me I would take you through uncharted territory”spoke the Lord into my heart as I’m walking near the waters. You may have to walk through uneven paths, and at times you may have to make your own way, and just because it may look familiar, doesn’t mean you know where you are going. I may take you through familiar places. It's easier for you to recognize the areas, since you had been there before; the time has come for you to help others to find their way out, just as you did. It's not going to be easy for fears, insecurities, and doubt will come around to discourage you to stop you, and at the same time to derail you; but remember this “I am the one who called you, the mighty one of Israel. I go ahead of you, I had prepared the way. I am your guardian, your guidance, and your strength; I have you. The Lord himself holds you in his hands. You had been trained in the fires of afflictions. Sorrows and disappointments had been your companion. Doubt of the unknown had tried to clog your vision. You had learn how to recognize the counterfeit from the real one, because I the Lord your God had personality trained you. So my child doesn’t be afraid for I am with you I would protect you and guide you always. You would hear my voice behind you saying this is the way to follow. When the enemy whispers in your ear I speak to your heart. Everything you need is inside of you. So take your position, stand firm and you would see the deliverance of the Lord. All I ask is for your willingness and your yes. I would never leave you nor never forsake you. I am with you until the end of the day. I had raised you for times such as this. There is no the mistake you are here today. So take heart, my sister for the best is yet to come. Ivette Diaz-Yee 2021

The Empty Seat

As I prayed over our beloved church. I star to remember where people used to sit. Once we get familiar we tent to claim a sit as our own. I myself I try not to sit in the same place, I tent to change it up, since it gives me a better chance to meet new people. Or get lost within, going unnoticed. But this morning as I ponder about the missing brothers and sisters. My hearts aches for the freinds and family that are gone. Would I see them again? As I pour out myself to the Lord. Writing how I feel. Alone and lonely. Many feelings running through me. I stared to think off few months ago as I am greeting people as the walk in. My eyes capture this mother battling health issues. Trying to walk through with her walker on hand. Her little daughter walking right beside her. This isolation has taken a toll in this little girl. Hair unkept, dirty long sweater. She is waking right between us and yet no one sees her. I try to talk to her, lower myself to her level looking directly at her eyes. She hides from me. And I said , why are you hiding from me sweetheart. No response. We need to keep the line going I was told. Did anybody sees her? As I remember that situation I started to pour out myself to the Lord. No words because I don’t know what to said. I sat in silence. Then I heard this within my souls. “How do you feels seeing all those empty seat, where faithful servants once’s sat?” Today I am looking for the familiar faces, those that help me through when everyone else left me alone. I don’t see them. Where are they? Are they coming back? How are they doing ? Did some one reach out to them? So as I walked into church this morning, with anticipation to see what the Lord has for me. I am walking with expectancy in my heart. Only in His presence I am able to see clear. Hear clear and understand what is taking place. My hear is heavy. I don’t want to think. All I want is to get lost within His presence. I want to run to the altar and lay at His feet. But I can’t. I don’t even know if it would be allowed. So there next to rows off empty chairs behind me I knell and allow myself to be touch in my most delicate areas. I am mourning I and lamenting. I am broken. How does it feel? I don’t have words to express them. The Lord said to learn the language of my heart ❤️. So here I sit. Away from every one. Listening to worship knowing that I had to press thru. The Lord has not release me yet. As I sit in service I noticed a little girl, enjoying the worship, eyes closed hands raised up. She can’t be more than 3 years old and here she stand. A road of chairs between us. Sumerge in his presence. I hear the words in my heart “come to me with the child like faith“. Deep deep inside my soul the Lord allows me to see my wrong motives, wrong expectation not wiling to received. A lot of my familiar faces are gone. Someone else sitting in their chairs. Are they been missing? Did someone reach out to them? Where are they? Would I see them again? Those are the questions I ask myself and I asked God. I may never get an answer. All I know it’s that today as I sit in the back of the church, waiting and watching. I have not been released yet. Like it or not I need to stay here. Lord I repent for my unwillingness to let go, trying to change things and allowing my EGO to take over. Forgive me Lord. Received me once again and allow me to see what you want me to see. Guard my heart. Channel my emotions and lead me. In Jesus name. Amen Ivette Diaz-Yee S♥BG February 21

❤️ By God

 Sisters ❤️By God 

Was birth a few years ago. I posted my 1st article, on Facebook in 2018.

  It's a place where I had learned and continued learning, and in order to grow spirituality; I had to share what I received. My revelations may be the stepping stone someone may need to catapult it forward. 

English is not my 1st language; it may take me longer to share and express myself. But how I am going to share our story? How the message can be shared? 

By taking the 1 step. I am nervous. I am scared, but I will do it anyway. For too long, I had this idea to create a blog and I had let, fear and insecurities hold me back. Today The Lord had given me a platform in which I will stand and proclaim the wonders that He had done in my life, and family.  Believe me, I had tried to run away, procrastinate, and derail to do another project, to end up always writing my experiences. But if I don't bring it out. They will be words written on the page, taking room and collecting dust. 

Every word is an experience, a season and a trajectory on my faith walk. It has shaped me into the person that I am today. 

So relax and enjoy, God is not done with you. He did it for me, He would do it for you too. 

“I am to help my sister until the Lord gives them rest, as He has done for me, and until they too have taken possession of the land The Lord your God is given them” Joshua 1:14 

S❤️BG 

Ivette Diaz-Yee sislovedbygod@gmail.com

Refuse To Repent

The joy of the season is gone. Gone are the lights the wrapping paper, and the gift. Family laughter and time to reflect, we wait all year, and then in a few weeks, the magic of it all is gone. A New Year has come. Few people would keep their resolutions. I am still thinking about what this year would bring. I have reminded you of your promises. To keep them close to heart. Not to dwell in the past but to prepare for dreadful days ahead. I am taken to His word, for life, truth, and guidance is found in it, also a warning. “What would happen to a nation that had forgotten her God? Refuses to repent, refuses to take correction? Her transgressions are many, and their apostasies are great. They had spoken falsely of the Lord. Foolish and senseless people, who have eyes, but see not, who have ears, but hear not. These people have stubborn and rebellious hearts; they have turned aside and gone away. Wicked men are found among my people; they lurk like fowlers lying in wait. They set a trap; they catch men. Like a cage full of birds, their houses are full of deceit.” Jeremiah 5 God has not forsaken us. Because of the faithfulness of few, He would help us. False prophets would be exposed for what they are. My people had been deceived, their ears numb. “They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths .“ ( 2 Tim 4:3) The enemy has infiltrated our churches and places of worship. They had become worldly and carnal. Self-centered. The prayer of the remnants had reached heaven and The Lord once more would show us mercy if we ASK. What we must do and what do we need to change? Seek him thru prayer and His word. Continue knocking constantly praying and bring into remembrance all His promises. Put yourself inside the living world. Personal. Taking responsibility for what is written. “I will Bowed ( as reverence, respect, humility, dedication, submission) down and worship him I will open my treasures (you are his treasure, open yourself to be used by him, in any shape way, or form) and present him with my gifts” ( your talents, find out your gifting and present to him ). Matthew 2:11-12 This word was given to me a few days ago. As I seek the Lord for guidance. I pray that it would shake your heart and that we would continue to push forward. Standing firm in him. “I am making my words in your mouth a fire, and this people wood and the fire shall consume them” Jeremiah 5:14b. Ivette Diaz-Yee Original notes from 12/31/22

Redesign Your Armor

 

Re-redo

ReDesign- design again or in a different way. 

God has given us a full armor which we find in Ephesians 6:13-18.  We all are very familiar with this scripture but do we really know how to use them.??? 

I’m always asking the Lord, why was fashion the way it was?  His answer blows my mind. “It was fashionable for those times and what was available and familiar for those that were living in those times.  Times and places.”

I took upon myself to learn and study a little more about the armor of God. I was told I need to go back to the drawing board.  To really understand the meaning of each piece and to know what was given to us.  The first words I came across PUT ON.  An action is required, take action.  Spiritually we need to put it on.  There were times when instead of putting on I was dragging it along. Forgetting it or leaving it behind. 

What I’m going to write is what I have learned about Puttying on The Full Armor of God.  

Take every word and give action to each and one of them.  Visualize what your doing. Recognize the battle you would be confronting.  Make sure you bring the right equipment to the battle ahead.

Again I asked the Lord, “Why it is that all these people are praying and honestly interceding ,but they don’t get the results they expecting? “Because they go to battle with the wrong equipment". 

What!!!! Explain it,  Lord make it simple for me I asked.  “We have a 5 alarm fire going on...the whole building is in flames, the help you are expecting is coming in, running in to the fire we see a whole group of doctors, nurses, medical technician, all running in fully equipped and trained to the work, but at the wrong place and that is what is taking place nowadays.  We are going around fighting this battles with the wrong equipment. 

Now take your time and let’s do this together.  Let us learn how to utilize the tools and the armory that was presented to us.

1st The Helmet 

        Protects your head. Your mind which is the battlefield of the mind. Where your thoughts 1st take place. Covers your ears and depending on the battle shields your eyes with the protective shield.  Ask God to open your eyes to see things for what they really are and to hear the unspoken cry. 

2nd Breastplate

          Guards your heart. The heart could be very deceitful down wicked and only God could comprehend and only God knows the motives of it. 

3rd Belt of Truth

          It is your stabilizer, holds you straight and firm, able to understand and recognize the truth that comes from the world of God.  Don’t let anyone fool you with empty words.

4th Feet Ready 

         With the readiness that comes from the gospel of truth the ability to change them depending on the battle and the terrain you are walking in.  Boots on the ground, running shoes,  stilettos to sandals, let His light show you the way. 

5th Shield of Faith 

         Not just to protect you from the many arrows the enemy is going to send your way but also as a shield as we walk to help our brother or sister in need,  able to protect and shield them until they too recover their strength. 

6th Take your Sword 

       Which is the word of God. Planted in your heart so we won’t sin against him. Able to penetrate even the deepest marrows of the heart. I have also added a dagger for those times when we know we are encountering a closed encounter,  when it becomes closed and personal. 

God wants us fully equipped and fully trained. 

Every single morning before I leave my house I read and readjust my armor.  Many times I do a check up on it because I know fully well the enemy is watching and waiting for the right opportunity to come in.  He does not need a door but a crack.  Inspection is required at all times. 

Be blessed my sisters and if you feel this help you feel free to share. 

Love 

My Walk To Gethsemane

My Walk  to Gethsemane

Lent : 

The period of 40 days which comes before Easter, beginning on Ash Wednesday.  It's a season of reflection and preparation before the celebration.  Preparation before something is going to happen. 

The place where Jesus came face to face with his human self.  “If it is possible to remove this cup from me”.  Where He confronted not just His human aspect but the enemy himself. 

My walk to my Gethsemane would help me to learn to feed on the world of God.  Every day I learn something new about myself.  Where I’m learning to acknowledge my faults and short comings.  Its where I identify my sins and I wrestle with my emotions and where I’m learning to bring them under control.  It's the place where I honor my savior with all that is in me. My Spirit, mind and soul. It's where I’m able to unmask my fears.  The place where I’m learning to stand in Him. Possessing the Land in front of me. Its where I’m not just getting to the root of the problem but where in getting to the seed. Where everything originated. It's the place where I give the Lord control over my expectations.  Where I’m getting deeper because I’m willing to dig deeper in self, a place where I recognize discouragement and the place I’m learning to believe in myself and the word with is in me. 

These are a few of my notes since I asked the Lord what He wanted for me to do for the next 40 days. 

2/26-until today 

A little inside in to my word. 

Enjoy the reading, sorry for me miss spelling..

Love 💕 

Ivette

Hello 

  For the last few years maybe 3 years I have been fasting and praying for 40 days.  Staring on 2/26 until Easter Sunday. God has me praying first for me to be able to see me through his eyes; my faults, my short coming , fears and insecurity. The enemy will use those against us, specially during these trail times. 

Help Her With Her Laundry

 Help Her with Her Laundry 

Because we know what the word  means, we know the One who breathes the word onto existence. The devil knows the word and he uses it against us.  He brings part of it for his benefit. Partial hearing or selective hearing. People want to hear what they want, what’s convenience.

We are so caught up in ourselves , That is difficult to see clear; our vision of truths is fog with our own perceptions to even hear correctly. The  enemy enhances what he wants us to concentrate on. He twists our motives and uses our own emotions against us.  

 But God Patiently  helps us, directing us and waiting for our yes;  Allowing our self to self medicate and self diagnose what we may think we have. Trying to make sense where there is not sense, because they are undiscerned.  

Without getting deep in to the root of the problem, we dance around the issues we carry and made us who we are today. We make excuses for our behavior and personality, unwilling to see because it’s to  painful or subconsciously we have forgotten about it. In the midst of all we go  through life shifting blame.  Unable to look deep inside self. 

But God in his merciful love for us, he doesn’t leave us there. Alone and raw. He brings his word to us. He brings unqualified people to hold you up prayer. 

As we allowed him and give him permission ( the lord won’t push himself towards us) he starts going deep in self and show us glimpse of areas that need to be addressed, work on and face on. 

Maturity is a long time process and we are all in a process.  God is always ready for us.  So we could grow in the grace and knowledge of Him ( 2 Peter 3:18) 

People want to hear the good things over the real thing. They want to hear what tickle their ears.  

Don’t allow people to change who you are. Only God has that power to bring forth the change need it in you.  We can’t change them or make their walk easy. Short cuts are always the long way around. 

God didn’t create you to fit in but to stand out. People is not going to like what I have to said. But I know I would be standing in front of God to give an account for every word spoken , written or text. I’m not here to please man but to please God who knows the heart man.  

Develop Your Sixth Sense

 Develop Your Sixth Sense. 

“Grow powerful in union with The Lord,in union with his mighty strength “ Eph 6:10

The other day as I was walking into work.I notice a nickel and a penny on the floor. I have the tendency to always pick up the pennies because they say “In God we trust”.Today I picked up the six cents and placed them in my pocket. Usually I just dropped them inside my work desk drawer just incase I need change for the vending machine. For some odd reason I didn’t do that this time. I forgot about the change in my pocket until I arrived home later that night. 

As I sat in front of my vanity taking off my jewelry, I notice the change in my pocket. I held it in the palm of my hand. And said “six cents”

Six cents I repeated. This time it sounded different, Sixth sense. Shivers ran down my arms. I know what was coming next. 

“Develop your Sixth sense” It took me by surprise. I knew what He was talking about. But I didn’t know what to do with it. Doubt came in, fear and double minded thoughts came in too.  

I understood why I received this revelation. I knew I had to do something with it but at the time I didn’t know what. I know God was telling me something. I needed to find out what he was trying to tell me. So I could get to the bottom of it. I had received the word. Now it was up to me to process, simmer and figure out what I have received. 

I recognize we are living in dangerous perils days.The 6th Sense God was talking about, has to do with our spiritual self. It has to do with discernment of the spirit,alertness, and the ability to recognize the tricks the enemy brings our way. Able to recognize it from a distance. It has to do with the knowledge to know the word of God so no one can deceive you with their beliefs and interpretations. Being able to see behind the mask and listening to whats not being said. It’s being able to see through what is fake and counterfeit. Able to see  the real problem behind the hurt, disappointment and fears. 

Developing our sixth sense would keep us accountable and ready for when He calls apon us. 

The 6th sense is essential for the battle we are facing today. “For we are not struggling against human being, but against the rulers, authorities and cosmic powers governing this darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realm”. Eph 6:12, (The Complete Jewish study bible).We need to wake up!

The weapons of our warfare are mighty and unto God to bring down strong holds.

Even when you walk through the fires you won’t be burned and the waters of affliction won’t sweep you away.  He will raise you up with wings like an eagle.

Times are changing and they are changing fast,look around you...tell me what you see? These are difficult times. 

God is calling us to a new level in Him. Not as individuals but as the body of Christ. United in unity by the blood of Christ. As one body, God is training us to distinguish good from evil. He is opening our eyes to the realm of the spirit. The enemy is after our souls. We ought to regain what he has stolen from us. 

The Lord is developing in us a new sense that has nothing to do with the natural senses and everything to do with it at the same time. Your senses are more defined and alert. He has awaken our senses to the super natural. We have a divine authority given to us by God himself. Because greater is He who is in you then him that lives in the world. We have the revelation of the present times, we know and have learned from our past. Today is the tomorrow we have prayed for yesterday. 

This is what developing our sixth sense is. To know what God has bestowed on us with His Divine Authority and that we carry inside the Resurrection Power. We no longer live but Christ lives within us.So my dear sisters let go and let God. 

Praying for you all. 

S♥️BG