Save by His Grace

He save me when I couldn’t save myself. He was there with me all along. I was never alone because in my loneliness, my hurts, and my disappointment he was there with me. “All the days ordained for me were writing in your book before one of them came to be” Psalm 139:16 The enemy knew that. For he was watching. Waiting for the most appropriate time to strike and bring me down. The same day I got baptized in the spirit was the same night my innocence was stolen. After that, my life was forever changed. I became rude, prideful, and arrogant. Manipulative and a liar. I found solace in drinking and smoking. And yet inside of me, I had this void. This emptiness. I knew that something was wrong but no one took the time to lead me or show me. Until I was found by him. Until I heard the ultimatum. Yale, mental illness or the Morgue. Because even in my darkest hours He was there to save me. “In my distress, I called to the Lord and he answered me. From the depth of the grave, I called out for help and he listen to my cry. When my life was ebbing away I remember you, Lord and my prayer rose to you, to your holy temple.” Jonah 2:2, 7. The Lord didn't wait for me to get better to get clean or get my life in order. His mighty hand reach out and picked me up. He lifted me from the mud and mire He put a new song in my heart. A new sound in my lips. He held me, and carry me when I couldn't move. He walked beside me at my pace. The Lord didn't rush me. He allowed me to see, to understand that true healing takes time. I didn't get where I had ended up overnight, I have the rest of my life to get well. Spiritual, physical, and mentally. What I had learned over these years I give out. The Lord save me; for me to save others. “You are to help your brothers (sisters) until the Lord gives them rest, as he has done for you.” Joshua 1:15 What he did in my life he would do it again in yours if you give him a chance. We have tried everything why not try Jesus? Ivette Diaz-Yee

Emotions

For our struggles is not against flesh and blood, But is spiritual. Eventhough it may feel, physical, it startes in our minds by words spoken to us. It takes hold of our emotions and plays out the scenario over and over. It goes after our must humanity because attacks our heart: it uses Our emotions and plays trick with our minds, replaying the scenario over and over, playing the words at loud,like an old record player: slow motion, piercing our souls, breaking the heart. Building pictures inside our thought and imagination Emotions according to google "are mental states brought on by neurophysiological changes, variously associated with thoughtts, feeling, behavioral responses, and a degree of pleasure and displeasure". We identify them by our emotions state as, happy, sad, disgust, fear, surprise and anger, and many more. By not mean I am an expert on them at least not as prophesional. But I had my fare share off them. its is one of the trick, the enemy uses to hold me back. To keep me prisioner and captive off my own though. They mascarate as reality, they feel real and it hurt deep inside, I cry and wonder, and I ask myself why? They are more than 25 patters of emotions that dictates our behabiour. The Lord gave it us, because it will help us and allowed us to sence when something is "a miss" when it doesnot "make sence". it give you goosponse, when something is wrong. It prepares you for what to come. At times it allowed us to hear the words that are not spoken, because it hightlights a behavior. This pass week I had to hear words spoken thru some one that cames from some one else. Word expressing all the wrong I had done, according to them. "I dont listen or paid attention, I dont follow instructions or do what thet expected off me. I dont know how to take care of, my own flesh and blood." I recognize the pain it causes for him to speak those words. I saw the justification, they reasons, and the excuses made. Words once said it can not be taken back. Its like a hammer hidding a nail in the wall once it come in, we coudl removed it, but the damage done to the wall it be there, until we fix or patched up. Our emotions are natural they come, is expected to feel the way we do, we play with it , we wonder what I could done different and we build imaginary castles and web in our minds. If we allowed it would control us, it will grow unto resentmet and anger, discuss and revenge. Emotions plays a very important part in our lifes, making us who we are, but we can not allowed them to run wild and take control off us. Yes its ok to scream, cry and dwell on it, but dont stay on it, because it will rob you of peace and steal your happiness. Leaving every one else around you in shadows. It has been only few days since that dreatful day. what the enemy ment for wrong The Lord will changed it around. What was given as a parting gift (consolation prize) , became a departing (to leave especially in order to start a new journey) It has been a released God will use everything for His glory, the Lord did this, He allowed to happen, he removed me from my commitment. He is preparing the way. They choose to let me go, but the wind that knocked me down gave me wings to fly. As The Lord showed me the other day, we pray for this things to happen and them when he opens the door, we dont like the way is open because we dont want to get hurt. little we do know that this situation is shaping my future. The agony, the labor pain, gets forgatten once the baby is born. it is the price we had to pay in order to give birth something new. Today I choose to find refuge under the wings of the almighty, He comforts my soul, he takes my emotions and bring them under control. This too may pass. I guard my heart, my mind and emotions I am learning to keep them under control. I will not allowed what was done out of anger, and control to destroyed , delay the plans The Lord has for me. and in everything that I will do I will set an example by doing what is good. " Titus 2:7. I will stay alert and will always be in prayer. I got hid bellow the belt, I got bruise and send away, But I am not alone for God is with me. Ivette Diaz-Yee

#20th

Come seat with me at Our table #20 = complete, perfect waiting period Balance; mind, body, spirit Peace and tranquillity It’s a number of move 20 represents Redemption- deliverance from what ever it’s holding you back. It’s maintain faith and patience as your desires and wishes are being fulfilled. 20 years ago I walk thru the back door of TCPA for what I thought would be 6 months rehabilitation. Little that I know the Lord was going to used that place to changed me, transformed me and make me new. I pray two powerful prayer that day: -don’t let me leave this place the way I came in” -help me from myself. My job had sent me away on a leave of absence, and I had 6 months to get better and come back. But the Lord had a different plan for me. Weeks before coming in I had been diagnose with mental illness, schizophrenia, and addiction behavior. I was told I needed to go in to medication and because mental illness was in my family line I was destined to have it too. It’s genetic. It’s in you. But I refused to believe it. In the mist off all that was taking place around me The Lord showed me where I was going, if I didn’t make a move. Jail, mental institutions or morgue. I refused all. And arrange to come into a place where I could help myself, not just for me but in order to help my kids I needed to get my act together. I had to give legal rights to my sister over my youngest child. In order to work with me and become who I am today. I had to make a lot off sacrifices. Moved away, leave behind what was familiar. This year we I am celebrating 20 years off freedom, healing and restoration. It’s hasn’t been easy but it has been worth it. Today you are witnessing the power of God in my life. He did It for me. He would do it for you. Just give him a try. We had tried everything why not Jesus? You are walking the most difficult steps right now. Time has come for you to slow down , look inside and allow God to change you. It is not a coincidence but a divine appointment from the Lord himself, that you are reading this post. Today I celebrate you and the work you will allowed God to do in you and thru you. “The Good of God in Me, Overshadows the Wrong I Had Done” For His glory. For His Honor. “ Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12 Ivette Diaz-Yee S❤️‍🩹BG #20 #mytestimony #redeem #freedomfromdarkness

Refuse To Repent

The joy of the season is gone. Gone are the lights the wrapping paper, and the gift. Family laughter and time to reflect, we wait all year, and then in a few weeks, the magic of it all is gone. A New Year has come. Few people would keep their resolutions. I am still thinking about what this year would bring. I have reminded you of your promises. To keep them close to heart. Not to dwell in the past but to prepare for dreadful days ahead. I am taken to His word, for life, truth, and guidance is found in it, also a warning. “What would happen to a nation that had forgotten her God? Refuses to repent, refuses to take correction? Her transgressions are many, and their apostasies are great. They had spoken falsely of the Lord. Foolish and senseless people, who have eyes, but see not, who have ears, but hear not. These people have stubborn and rebellious hearts; they have turned aside and gone away. Wicked men are found among my people; they lurk like fowlers lying in wait. They set a trap; they catch men. Like a cage full of birds, their houses are full of deceit.” Jeremiah 5 God has not forsaken us. Because of the faithfulness of few, He would help us. False prophets would be exposed for what they are. My people had been deceived, their ears numb. “They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths .“ ( 2 Tim 4:3) The enemy has infiltrated our churches and places of worship. They had become worldly and carnal. Self-centered. The prayer of the remnants had reached heaven and The Lord once more would show us mercy if we ASK. What we must do and what do we need to change? Seek him thru prayer and His word. Continue knocking constantly praying and bring into remembrance all His promises. Put yourself inside the living world. Personal. Taking responsibility for what is written. “I will Bowed ( as reverence, respect, humility, dedication, submission) down and worship him I will open my treasures (you are his treasure, open yourself to be used by him, in any shape way, or form) and present him with my gifts” ( your talents, find out your gifting and present to him ). Matthew 2:11-12 This word was given to me a few days ago. As I seek the Lord for guidance. I pray that it would shake your heart and that we would continue to push forward. Standing firm in him. “I am making my words in your mouth a fire, and this people wood and the fire shall consume them” Jeremiah 5:14b. Ivette Diaz-Yee Original notes from 12/31/22

Let God Be Your Compass

 Let God Be Your Compass

Isaiah 30:21

“ whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you saying, this is the way; walk in it “ 

 

COMPASS- an instrument containing a magnetized pointer which shows the direction of a magnetic north. 

Today, as I sit and ponder at what’s going on around me I get to see glimpses of a storm raging around us.  It has lasted so long, everything is dark. Fog has blinded our vision. The winds of incentives pushes us towards the wall.  Loosing grasp and footing I try to move forward but I can’t. I feel my body giving up; I am getting tired, I feel my body losing hope. 

I don’t have the strength I need to move forward, but I also know I can’t stay stock where I am. 

I hear many voices, every one has a voice, something to say, something to add. Distractions have moved us away from our path and yet in the mist of the storm I hear a voice  telling me what to do. It comes from deep inside my souls. Letting me know that I have the tools needed. 

“Find your compass” I reach inside and there it is, for a short time I had forgotten. I had gotten used to carrying around knowing what I am going. 

But as darkness covers the earth, I need to keep my eyes closer to the compass.  Today I know that God is my compass. “For when you go thru the waters they would not swipe you away, when you go thru the fires you won’t get burn for the Lord himself goes with you “ (Isaiah 43) 

He would always point North and West we stand and raise our eyes upward he is there to lead us. 

“Your ears would hear a voice”, means that He is closed at hand. In order to hear closer to your ear means that we are very close in contact so close that He whispers “this is the way; walk in it.” and yet the noises of the world. The distractions. The ups and downs and disappointments don’t allow us to  find the way. 

Today as I sit here looking at the word around me I am confident to know God is my compass. No matter what’s taking place around me. I serve a God that doesn’t lie. (Numbers) and I have learn to take him at His word. (Matthew)

No matter how difficult it gets out there. You where raised for this times. (Esther) if you are reading this post you are part of the remnants. (Ezra) 

Hold on to your compass and don’t let go. The times is near. The time is now. 

Love you all, don’t loose grasp of what you have accomplished, and where you stand today.  

Ivette Dias-Yee 

#wordinspire

Help Her With Her Laundry

 Help Her with Her Laundry 

Because we know what the word  means, we know the One who breathes the word onto existence. The devil knows the word and he uses it against us.  He brings part of it for his benefit. Partial hearing or selective hearing. People want to hear what they want, what’s convenience.

We are so caught up in ourselves , That is difficult to see clear; our vision of truths is fog with our own perceptions to even hear correctly. The  enemy enhances what he wants us to concentrate on. He twists our motives and uses our own emotions against us.  

 But God Patiently  helps us, directing us and waiting for our yes;  Allowing our self to self medicate and self diagnose what we may think we have. Trying to make sense where there is not sense, because they are undiscerned.  

Without getting deep in to the root of the problem, we dance around the issues we carry and made us who we are today. We make excuses for our behavior and personality, unwilling to see because it’s to  painful or subconsciously we have forgotten about it. In the midst of all we go  through life shifting blame.  Unable to look deep inside self. 

But God in his merciful love for us, he doesn’t leave us there. Alone and raw. He brings his word to us. He brings unqualified people to hold you up prayer. 

As we allowed him and give him permission ( the lord won’t push himself towards us) he starts going deep in self and show us glimpse of areas that need to be addressed, work on and face on. 

Maturity is a long time process and we are all in a process.  God is always ready for us.  So we could grow in the grace and knowledge of Him ( 2 Peter 3:18) 

People want to hear the good things over the real thing. They want to hear what tickle their ears.  

Don’t allow people to change who you are. Only God has that power to bring forth the change need it in you.  We can’t change them or make their walk easy. Short cuts are always the long way around. 

God didn’t create you to fit in but to stand out. People is not going to like what I have to said. But I know I would be standing in front of God to give an account for every word spoken , written or text. I’m not here to please man but to please God who knows the heart man.  

Crossing Over

 Crossing Over 

A few weeks ago the Lord gave a word out of Joshua 3.  As I listen to the word playing around me I feel something jump inside off me. I remember the word He gave me a few years ago, as I prepare myself to go on a mission trip (2009) “consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you” v.5. I remember the word He spoke to my heart and today He is bringing the word back to my heart, but in a different way.  “You would know which way to go, since you have never been this way before.” v4  

The Lord was instructing Joshua in want to do next. He in return was telling the priest what was required of them to do: And the officers went around camp given orders to the people. The priest went ahead of them, until the reach the edge of the river, and their feet touched the waters edge. The water from upstream stopped flowing and the water flowing down was completely cut off” 

As soon as the priest step in, the waters stopped flowing and they stood in dry ground. I could see the ragging waters all around us.  The many voices calling out for your attention. The unrest of people. The division.  The anger, the insecurity and all the distractions, confusion, insecurities, fears,pain. God is telling me to step out into the ragging waters around me. To trust him with my whole heart and to move forward.   My heart is aches for everything that is taking place around me.

As I sit a church during Good Friday, I rushed on from work so I could attend a service. The worship team is playing, people all around me are talking with the music and the sounds. Some are praying, others are enjoying the service and some of us are interceding for the church body.  I see one of the young adults and I am able to see God is doing something in them , not just Elizabeth but all of them. The Lord once again brings the word He gave me days prior. I had come to understand that the word he speak to my heart is not for me but to this he wants me to share.  He had me walk to one of the girls. I didn’t want to bother her, she is prostrate in from of God. I don’t want to bother or break the intimate moments she is having with the Lord. I am fighting with my self. until I can’t any longer and I allowed my self to go and lay hands on her and prayed over her. God is raising this young girls to be able to step over the raging waters of society, to take that step in to and to trust Him with their tomorrow. Where they going as a whole not just one of two but all 3. They had to come against what is trying to bring the down, stop them or silence they voices. The have a complete generation to reach. 

It has taken me a long while to write this because I want to come out of my way.  I don’t want to be just words type in a letter. I take very seriously the words the Lord speaks to my heart. So as I hold on pray and make sure The Lord is the one leading me, not me or what I think I should or said, once again I see this beautiful girls and this time as I prayed I see a glass bottle full of lighting bugs. They all flying around the big glass bottle, going up to the top, just to have a lid on it. 

Last night during our intercessory prayer as we sat down and prayed over our young the Lord brought to mind everything he has been speaking to my heart. I pray that this would help you. He has me praying for few of them.  God is speaking to our church and He is raising a new wine, new spirit within our wall. I believed is up to us:  mature leaders to protect them, guide them and lead them in the way of the Lord. As it as said last night “Discipleship” is needed.   Spirituals Mothers, fathers  and sisters are needed to help generation to move ahead. 

Have a bless day