Trust Me

I still remember the words my husband said as we drove around a late Sunday afternoon. “Do you trust God?” His tone was scary and firm, I knew something was going to happen and changed our lives forever. I said “If He is allowed to happen, He would see us through”. Was what I said, holding my breath and expecting his answer. The landlord is selling the house. We have 30-60 days to moved out. I stood silence for what it seems a long time. For the last few months I had asked if he was going to take advantage of the market and sell his property.  We had been there for 12 years. No it was his answer, every time I asked. We had pushed ourselves to paid off my new car. Since I had been driving ugly Betty a 27 year old Oldsmobile. Which literally was breaking on me. We only had one month to pay it off. My husband had always wanted a new truck so before we made the purchase, once again I had gone to the landlord and asked “Are you selling” No you would be the 1st to know. We went and purchased (finance) his new truck. A month later right before Mother’s Day I was told by my husband that we had to moved out. I felt my whole world coming to and end, how we would do this? Do we have the savings to pull this through? Are we going to be able to find a house in  this market? So many questions. I felt numb. Frozen. I could feel fear, anxiety creeping in. As we prayed. We came up with a plan. The following Tuesday at my lady's group I told them what had taken place. To hear them giving me referrals,  connections. I also heard my own children’s telling us, you can’t pack and move in 30 days, you’re crazy if you think that is going to be possible. Get ready for be taken advantage,  the market is hot. Be ready for a bidding war. You are going to over paid. The next day I had a medical appointment in which due to my level of anxiety my doctor recommended for me to see a psychiatrist and even putting me on medication. Which I refused. All I heard was Crazy. Every one was throwing that word at me. Little that they know. I had been fighting the system for 20 years. Due to my family lineage, mental illness run deep in my family. One uncle committed suicide and another aunt is under medication and even been in mental institutions. My sister and niece they both had mental breakdowns. So when I heard psychiatrist all I heard is you are crazy. As I came home or what had been our place for the last 12 years I heard in my heart the Lord saying “I have your home all you have to do is find it “ and yet at the same time another voice whispering and laughing “yeah try to find a house in this market is like finding a needle in a haystack”. (The Lord speak to your heart the enemy whispers in your ear) I had to closed myself to everyone and everything around me. Working full time, trying to find a realtor every thing all happening at the same time. I felt like I was inside a tornado, all around me was spinning out off control. But God. He kept me under the wings of his protection. He send a pastor friend my way to hear me and to listen to my cry, my fears, my anxieties.  I walked out of her office. Ready to confront the storm. Next day I found a mortgage broker who put me in contact with a realtor. Few times during that week, I visited few homes, other times that an offer was taking place. One night after we finishing driving around looking a new listing, we made few changes on our “demands” (my husband) we not longer where looking for garage or 2nd bathroom. Once we let go of the wants the Lord provide for us the place we were to call home. As I am driving to see the house The Lord said “claim it for is yours” as I drove to the house I said that “this is it, do what ever you need to do to get it “ what happen if they increased the price ? Then it isn’t for me. Are you going to look around? “I don’t need to” I heard myself saying. For I know the Lord himself had picked the house for us. So far he has make a way for the landlord to give us 6k, something about he saving our percentage for the years we had lived at his place. That took place on Monday, Tuesday we had a phone call from our realtor, they had accepted our offer. The other buyers had pull back. By the Grace and mercy of God. The help from my core, we moved exactly 45 days later. The Lord provided for us. He said “it’s about time Ivette, this is the fruit of your faithfulness”. When we allowed God to work for us, we work less. In the economy that we are. We were able to purchase a house, at incredible price, get extra money so we could start our new life’s in our new home. We had consecrated to the Lord. My office had become the headquarters for my Intercesory prayers.  The Lord said  “Trust Me” and we had. We look at Gods economy not at world economy. The Lord provided for us and He would continue providing.  Thank you Lord for your faithfulness and your grace. Ivette Diaz-Yee June 23, 2021

HIStory

—Past events connected with someone or something —Events of the past; specially events relating to you —Narrative of past event. Remembering and bringing to mind the many times God had brought you thru. Knowing in your heart that if He did it before He would do it again. For nothing is impossible for God. I heard someone said once “when you shared your story (testimony) with others it allows God to do the same thing again and again. So when you are going thru, bring in to remembrance the history you have with God. Know your story tell your story. “They overcame him by the blood of the lamp and by THE WORD OF THEIR TESTIMONY” Rev. 12:11 Our words have power. For it is written “life and death are in the power of the tongue” Prov 18:21. If we stay silent, we have already allowed the enemy to take ground. History shows a picture of what it was, it leaves a marker for others to follow. Bring hope to the hopeless. So today as the days opens up, let used our words, and share your HIStory with others. Watch and see our Lord at work. Ivette Diaz-Yee June 2022

Save by His Grace

He save me when I couldn’t save myself. He was there with me all along. I was never alone because in my loneliness, my hurts, and my disappointment he was there with me. “All the days ordained for me were writing in your book before one of them came to be” Psalm 139:16 The enemy knew that. For he was watching. Waiting for the most appropriate time to strike and bring me down. The same day I got baptized in the spirit was the same night my innocence was stolen. After that, my life was forever changed. I became rude, prideful, and arrogant. Manipulative and a liar. I found solace in drinking and smoking. And yet inside of me, I had this void. This emptiness. I knew that something was wrong but no one took the time to lead me or show me. Until I was found by him. Until I heard the ultimatum. Yale, mental illness or the Morgue. Because even in my darkest hours He was there to save me. “In my distress, I called to the Lord and he answered me. From the depth of the grave, I called out for help and he listen to my cry. When my life was ebbing away I remember you, Lord and my prayer rose to you, to your holy temple.” Jonah 2:2, 7. The Lord didn't wait for me to get better to get clean or get my life in order. His mighty hand reach out and picked me up. He lifted me from the mud and mire He put a new song in my heart. A new sound in my lips. He held me, and carry me when I couldn't move. He walked beside me at my pace. The Lord didn't rush me. He allowed me to see, to understand that true healing takes time. I didn't get where I had ended up overnight, I have the rest of my life to get well. Spiritual, physical, and mentally. What I had learned over these years I give out. The Lord save me; for me to save others. “You are to help your brothers (sisters) until the Lord gives them rest, as he has done for you.” Joshua 1:15 What he did in my life he would do it again in yours if you give him a chance. We have tried everything why not try Jesus? Ivette Diaz-Yee

#20th

Come seat with me at Our table #20 = complete, perfect waiting period Balance; mind, body, spirit Peace and tranquillity It’s a number of move 20 represents Redemption- deliverance from what ever it’s holding you back. It’s maintain faith and patience as your desires and wishes are being fulfilled. 20 years ago I walk thru the back door of TCPA for what I thought would be 6 months rehabilitation. Little that I know the Lord was going to used that place to changed me, transformed me and make me new. I pray two powerful prayer that day: -don’t let me leave this place the way I came in” -help me from myself. My job had sent me away on a leave of absence, and I had 6 months to get better and come back. But the Lord had a different plan for me. Weeks before coming in I had been diagnose with mental illness, schizophrenia, and addiction behavior. I was told I needed to go in to medication and because mental illness was in my family line I was destined to have it too. It’s genetic. It’s in you. But I refused to believe it. In the mist off all that was taking place around me The Lord showed me where I was going, if I didn’t make a move. Jail, mental institutions or morgue. I refused all. And arrange to come into a place where I could help myself, not just for me but in order to help my kids I needed to get my act together. I had to give legal rights to my sister over my youngest child. In order to work with me and become who I am today. I had to make a lot off sacrifices. Moved away, leave behind what was familiar. This year we I am celebrating 20 years off freedom, healing and restoration. It’s hasn’t been easy but it has been worth it. Today you are witnessing the power of God in my life. He did It for me. He would do it for you. Just give him a try. We had tried everything why not Jesus? You are walking the most difficult steps right now. Time has come for you to slow down , look inside and allow God to change you. It is not a coincidence but a divine appointment from the Lord himself, that you are reading this post. Today I celebrate you and the work you will allowed God to do in you and thru you. “The Good of God in Me, Overshadows the Wrong I Had Done” For His glory. For His Honor. “ Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12 Ivette Diaz-Yee S❤️‍🩹BG #20 #mytestimony #redeem #freedomfromdarkness

The Box

I see myself walking alongside you.  Chatting and keeping conversation.  Nesting around my chest is this box that I am carrying, not too big and not too small.  The right size that I could just see over it. Since I remember, I have always had it with me. But today is different, something is taking place; I did not pay attention and continued walking and chatting, enjoying the company.  Over the years we have become good friends. 

You know all my dreams, my hopes and you have been with me during the most difficult times of my life.  You have directed my steps and showed me the way out.  You know me more than I know myself. You created my inmost being and nothing is hidden from you. 

I hear your voice saying, "look inside the box" I asked myself, why should I look? Why are you telling me to look inside?  Don’t you already know what’s inside?

Puzzled by your request I fumble with the box I take my time, I don’t understand; since we stared to walk, you have seen me carrying this box, and now, you have decided to ask me to look inside it? I recognize your tone of voice,  it's joyful and playful. I am puzzled but I obey.  I stop, put the box down and I dare to look down at the box and to my surprise it is empty.  Empty. !!!  I look up and I see your face smiling at me, I hear your voice saying. “ It has been empty for a long time. I realize then, the enemy has used the residue of my old self to hold me back. 

Insecurity, fear, doubt, double minded, low self esteem, comparing myself with others, thinking of me less, not fully trusting God.  All these “things” I have struggled with. They are gone. I am a new creation. Wrong perspective and wrong beliefs  had me carrying this empty box for so long.  Today I have made the decision not to pick the box up again. 

Asking the Lord to bring to my attention when I consider grabbing hold of it again.  As we continue walking, this time He takes my hand and leads me as a young child.  I feel light, leaving the box behind has given me a new perspective for tomorrow. 

Able to recognize a new strength in me, we walked away leaving behind the empty box that I had carried for so long.  Now my question is, What are you carrying? What are you holding on to? 

May this devotion help you see deeper into yourself and help you empty out your own box.

Blessings 

Ivette Dias-Yee 

My Prayer Shawl

“Bring forth your prayer shawls” this morning as I came to sit, He spoke those words into my heart. 

I have this beautiful prayer shawl that a friend brought me from Jerusalem.  I have had it for a few years already.  Hanging in the office, it stays as an ornament. It pleasing to the eyes. 

Today is the 1st time I am able to really bring it out, I wrapped myself with it and allowed myself to learn the true meaning behind it.  Little do I know that it has a name. It’s called a “Tallit” used by the Jews rabbi or Jewish man.  I started my quest in google. I found few people and how they gave me their own interpretation.   Marilyn Hichey calls it a “super natural mantel with the White and blue representing the Holy Spirit present with us and the purity of God”.  Okay,  I accept that. 

Google to the rescue one more time. I looked up the high priest garments. (Which to me it’s a representation of our armor of God.  Ephesians 6:13- The Turban = the helmet of Salvation, shoulder piece=the breastplate of righteousness, Sash= Belt of truth , but that’s for another study, )

I must continue, with the help of my favorite gal "google" trying to find something else. I’m missing something but I don’t know what it is.  Then I found  these guy from “Happy Tabernacle and He explained it as a tool that God has given us; a closet: being covered by a prayer closet, enhancing our prayer life, speaking to God without distractions “ This guy gave a scripture. I like Him ..!!!! people could deny you but not the word of God. 

Numbers 15:38... “throughout the generations to come you are to make tassels on the corner of your garments, with a blue cord on each tassel. (V.39) You  will have these tassels to look at and so you will remember all the commands of the lord , that you may obey them and not prostitute yourself by going after the lust of your own hearts and eyes.  (V.40) Then you will remember to obey all my commands and will be consecrated to your God “ Okay, something about 4 grabs my attention, but I need something else. 

I’m praying looking all around.  A few hours have passed,  I call my Jewish friend (since I trust her) to help me, but no, she is busy. I know God is working something in me. 

I’m a little apprehensive, I don’t trust everyone or everything, it comes from the spiritual abuse I suffered which The Lord is using this quest for me to heal.  Like pastor Bob said “I want to be a Voice not an Echo” 

Finally I find this teaching on “The Tallit”  by Dr.Terry Harmon.  There is something about this guy I like. You guys have to watch and listen to how He explains and brings forth scripture after scripture. Again, He brings me back to Numbers 15:37-41 

Listen to him back and forth taking notes. Asking God for my personal revelation. I’m done. I could feel his presence all around me. I’m praying   And ask for forgiveness for what had held me back from to many people. Trust, I need to trust again.  Not everyone is the same.  I’m asking The Lord to removed from deep inside the seed of miss trust and to heal that area in my life.  And that's when it happened.  The Lord reminded me of the 4 corners of The Tallit and a scripture “ I have longed to gather you together as a hen gather her chicks under her wing” this scripture is found on  Matthew 23:37 and is The Lord Jesus Christ crying over us. 

He spoke to my heart about the fourth corners on the Tallit.  I held on to them and continued to pray. I don’t know what was coming out, because I have learn to let him lead me on my spiritual language, I don’t know how long I kneel in His presence.   He spoke to me about the 4 corners of the world, (Isaiah 11:12)from North to South from East to West. Four representing creation and world. 

He allowed me to see how this Coronavirus Covid 19 has brought us together.  Today this scripture has been fulfilled in our own eyes, The Lord himself gathers us under His wings.  We find refuge in the shadows of His wings (Ps 36:7

I’m undone, I no longer live but Christ lives in me. 

I finished my time  with The Lord with communion; together, alone, special and powerful. 

The Lord met me on our 1st 5 days of prayer, fasting and communion. I can’t wait to see what he would have for us tomorrow. 

 “Open your mouth and I will filled it” Ps. 81:10

 

Blessings 

Let God Be Your Compass

 Let God Be Your Compass

Isaiah 30:21

“ whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you saying, this is the way; walk in it “ 

 

COMPASS- an instrument containing a magnetized pointer which shows the direction of a magnetic north. 

Today, as I sit and ponder at what’s going on around me I get to see glimpses of a storm raging around us.  It has lasted so long, everything is dark. Fog has blinded our vision. The winds of incentives pushes us towards the wall.  Loosing grasp and footing I try to move forward but I can’t. I feel my body giving up; I am getting tired, I feel my body losing hope. 

I don’t have the strength I need to move forward, but I also know I can’t stay stock where I am. 

I hear many voices, every one has a voice, something to say, something to add. Distractions have moved us away from our path and yet in the mist of the storm I hear a voice  telling me what to do. It comes from deep inside my souls. Letting me know that I have the tools needed. 

“Find your compass” I reach inside and there it is, for a short time I had forgotten. I had gotten used to carrying around knowing what I am going. 

But as darkness covers the earth, I need to keep my eyes closer to the compass.  Today I know that God is my compass. “For when you go thru the waters they would not swipe you away, when you go thru the fires you won’t get burn for the Lord himself goes with you “ (Isaiah 43) 

He would always point North and West we stand and raise our eyes upward he is there to lead us. 

“Your ears would hear a voice”, means that He is closed at hand. In order to hear closer to your ear means that we are very close in contact so close that He whispers “this is the way; walk in it.” and yet the noises of the world. The distractions. The ups and downs and disappointments don’t allow us to  find the way. 

Today as I sit here looking at the word around me I am confident to know God is my compass. No matter what’s taking place around me. I serve a God that doesn’t lie. (Numbers) and I have learn to take him at His word. (Matthew)

No matter how difficult it gets out there. You where raised for this times. (Esther) if you are reading this post you are part of the remnants. (Ezra) 

Hold on to your compass and don’t let go. The times is near. The time is now. 

Love you all, don’t loose grasp of what you have accomplished, and where you stand today.  

Ivette Dias-Yee 

#wordinspire