Boiling

To grow toward a dangerous level Extremely anger Burning up Scorching Boiling or scorching up will eliminate bacteria in raw milk, and the water starts to evaporate, and another component begins to separate, effectively eliminating all microbiology, good and bad. The fat separates and forms a layer on top. The water below boils and vaporizes to form steam, but is trapped by the layer of fat above. This was the way I reacted the other day. I could feel myself getting hot and uncomfortable. The heat was coming out of me. I felt myself getting hot until it became like “boiling up” I took a step backward and asked the Lord; to show me what was going on? To give me revelation and understanding, for I really wanted to see what had and was taking place within me. God wasn’t removing a behavior. He was exposing the behavior, that is rooted in fear. That whispers “I won’t make what I need in order to survive” it’s overshadows my trust in God as my provider. It bring mistrust. It wants to control. At this time he is bringing to the surface my impurities, my lack of trust. I see with the natural what is taking place around me and I am bothered. Why not me? Comes out of jealousy and greed. Not fully trusting God with my tomorrows. He is separating the fat out of me. Exposing and bringing to the surface, now is up to me to get rid off it. To destroy it, and learn to recognize it when it happen again. Lord forgive me, for allowing others behavior dictate my behavior and outcome. Forgive me for not fully trusting you and allowing myself to flounder around. “For those who fear him lack nothing” Psalms 34:9 “The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want” Psalms 23:1 Ivette Diaz-Yee August 2023

Going Under

The water of baptism represents going under the waters and raising up in Christ. “I no longer live, but Christ lives in me” (Gal 2:20) A representation of a new birth. New beginnings, new season. The Lord had giving us this awesome opportunity to come to him with not pretenses, but out of obedience and humility. Is about staying focus in him, is saying no to the flesh and about saying yes to the spirit. Asking God to develop a six sense in us, so then in return we be able to hear him correctly and clearly. Watching in awe as he steel ourselves (to fill oneself with determination and courage) with determination to do his will for our life’s. Walking with determination the path designed for us. As we render (to make available) our hearts, our thought, our emotions to him. To be changed from the inside out. Breaking away from self-reliance, self pity, selfishness, comparison, and Jealousy. Strict application I do out of legalization instead of love. Self interest, following rules and mandates from the grays areas that still much alive in me. It mask itself as good but it’s the flesh in me. The areas no one sees. As I allowed God to go deeper in me I came face to face with a behavior an action an attitude and my response to others. The boasting of the flesh when I have the tendency to exaggerate a little. How the flesh like to impress others in the smallest way as how I carry myself, to be known, recognize and feel the applause of others. Coming from a deep desire to be accepted, the deeper root of abandonment. The lust of the flesh, they all come from the same root; pride. For I look at self and what I had overcome. The victories. From where the Lord had taken me. Mental illness, jail and morgue. Pride mask itself again and I want to help God. Instead of allowing him to do them. For deep inside I don’t have full confidence in him- to fight for me, to protect me, and to pave the way. Which in returns come from the root of impatience, for I think my wishes are been ignore. Going under had me, doing a self inventory, self evaluation. Exposing me. I will continue to expose myself to the one who love me and gave himself for me. I had seeing the power of God in our life’s. The revelation that comes when we yield to his calling and we align ourselves with his will. Never to be the same. Continuing to change and expose the secret areas of the heart. To be born of the spirit and to walk in the spirit. So I won’t gratify the sinful flesh. Going under it means to open yourself completely to the one who knows you the most. Saying yes here I am Lord. Do as you please. Clean me and make me whole. Today is the day, let me rejoice and be glad in it. Ivette Diaz-Yee August 2023

The Sacrifice

Here I kneel oh Lord. I don't have riches, but from what I have I bring forth my offering. Let your purifying fire burn the excess of self-reliance, self-absorbed. Trying to help you instead of waiting for you. Let me not light up the fire, but let your fire consume the altar of my heart. Teach me how to present myself as a living sacrifice; holy and pleasing unto you. Becoming the billboard that shows forth the glory of God. Breaking down the old self-altar and rebuilding all new; with you at the center of all. Here I am Lord once again. Purified my heart, my motives my actions, and my reactions. In Jesus name, I pray, amen. Ivette Diaz-Yee August 2023 #elijah #restauration #purifying

The Mirror of Self Reflection

Isaiah 27:3-5 TPT “ I, The Lord watch over my vineyard of delights, moment by moment I water it in love and protect it day and night, There is no anger in me. For if I found briars and thorns I would burn them up and march to battle against them. So let the branches cling to my protection when they make true peace with me, yes, let them make me their friend “ As I listen to this teaching, I feel the hand of God cutting away the stigma, guilt, and shame that surfaced during this time of isolation. The time has finally come to go deeper. I recognize that I need to work out those places that only the Holy Spirit can touch. God was asking for permission to go in a revisit those areas; Spirit of religion was the first one. How I had allowed man made rules and traditions derailed me from the purpose that God has for me. I broke down in tears, in repentance and humility recognizing the big part I played in it. As I’m kneeling down I had this vision of a long grey body mirror. Matter of fact it look like one I have. God would always used what is familiar to us. As I looked into it, I can’t see anything because a bright rays off lights are coming out from it. Spiritually I’m standing in front off it, yet I know I’m in the floor kneeling, undone, crying , and asking God to continue showing me those areas that I had become blind to it, or that I had hurried alive within me. Too painful to deal or accept. “Stop calling myself names “ was what I heard. I had called myself many names; stupid, ignorant, crazy, procrastinator, God was showing me those areas in the soul that need to break; the soul ties off insecurities; I sense them being removed from deep inside of me -He is burning them up- God is doing a cleansing from deep inside. Loosing up the tights that the enemy had me bound for so long, He is releasing me to the freedom that comes from him. Delivering me from the wrong belief systems. He was setting me free. This time when I looked into the mirror I believe I saw His reflection. He allowed me to see me through His eyes. I am his vineyard of delights, He waters me as I spend time with him. He protect me day and night and he doesn’t get angry when he sees the residuos of self, because when He find them, he himself burned them up with his fire of purification. God himself goes ahead and march in to battle for my sake. I am undone, left without strength to get up, but yet free and the shalom peace that surrounds me was almost like I could touch it. I know God was preparing me and getting me ready for what was yet to come. As I’m settling myself I started to draw what I thought I saw. And explaining it in my own words. But that is for another day. For now let stand in front of the mirror and write down what you see...them ask God what He sees when he looks at you. Allow him to showed you how He sees you. Original notes from 4/15/2020 #godinspiredword Ivette Diaz-Yee Feel free to share ⚓️⚓️🙏🙏🙏 S❤️BG

The Engagement Ring

The Lord has me praying since 1:00 am this morning. In the mist off all. In and out of my sleep the Lord still speaks. He gave me a vision or dream in which I saw a beautiful engagement ring, I saw a bride sitting down but her dress was dirty, then I saw around me many people in wedding dresses, different styles but what I notice was that some off then where wrinkle or stains. What is going on I ask...? I’m coming for my bride the church not the building, some off you guys had to battle a lot of obstacles to be here, I don’t look at the outer appearance, but I The Lord look at the heart. Your heart is ready, you had push hard. We are not longer dating, but our relationship had change. Today we are engaged. My ring in your fingers mean that Im taking you seriously and the I’m coming for you. God has been waiting for so long for this type of relationship from his bride the church. This time, which has been force upon to us let us appreciate and do what He has requested of us. Seek him and you would find him when you seek him with all your heart. Cry out to him. Prayer change things and circumstances. It’s going to get ugly before it gets better. But at the end we would see the blessings of the Lord in the land of the living. We had been fighting an invincible enemy BUT we serve an invencible God. Don’t let the word distract us. Let us keep fighting in prayer. Push.!!Pray Until Something Happen. What the enemy try for wrong The Lord is changing it around. ..!! Pray all day, pray constantly, and have a song in your heart. In Jesus name Amen Ivette Diaz-Yee #18 of 40 days of prayer “my personal walk to Gethsemane “ But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, - Philippians 3:20 https://biblegateway.com/passage?search=Phil.3.20&version=NIV

His Glory

I had the opportunity to walk the grounds of one of the most beautiful oldest colleges in the Midwest. Voted #1 best value liberal art college in the nation. With students from 26 countries, with a variety of faith backgrounds. 125 years of history within the walls. Thousand of prayers. As I walk inside the old church, feeling and letting my imagination run, I could hear the hymns sung. The many messages preach over the pulpit. Many lives were changed because of their dedication and submission to God. Their willingness to let go of self so they could find God's purpose for their life and the reason they were created for. Going after their destiny. Running after God. Available, faithful, and teachable. I would love to be a fly on the wall so I could experience what they experienced. As I continue to move up the stairs every step is bringing me closer to a new revelation. I come across hundreds of volumes on church history. Walls full of books. Years of history in each book. Each step brings me closer to what awaits me at the end of the room. As I walked by I noticed the big church organ. A small desk with the college information. Wing chair sits by the window. I feel peace in the room. I stood there for what looked like an eternity, not wanting to move. Reluctantly I made it down the stairs. Just to come up once again. I wanted to take pictures of the precious room up the stairs. Something special with the small room. To capture the moment it that was possible. This time I bring my daughter and my phone. I wanted the picture of me sitting by the window. My daughter took some shoots and we left. Sometime later as I am going over the pictures I notice the light coming out of one of the pictures of me sitting by the window. Then I realize that thanks to technology we were able to have a glimpse of heaven, the rays of glory, His presence was tangible and we captured. This is the 2nd time in the last few months that I am able to capture glimpses of heavens. If we are willing to press on. If we yield to His presence. If we search for more of him. If we thirst and hunger for more of him. We be able to find him. For his presence filled the room. The light of heavens came down and dwell among us. His presence was felt and he allowed me to fill it too. I don't know about you but when we look for him with all our heart, mind and soul, he will not disappoint us. For he will meet us there. I saw the old church, I went inside looking for Him and I found him. For he waited for me sitting by the window, overlooking the Mississippi River below. Our Lord and Saviour is calling. He is willing to meet with you at the most unexpected times. Don't allow distractions to move you. Don't allow what is taking place around us to rob us of having intimacy with the Lord. I am on vacation. I didn't have plans for an encounter, But The Lord gifted me with his peace, his presence, and his love. Ivette Diaz-Yee July 2023 Principia College Elsah, Illinois

Authority

definition: Power or right to give orders, make decisions and enforce obeDIEnce. Power to do. “The legal and moral right to exercise power; power that is rightly possessed” (NIV Bible dictionary) Act 1:8 “But you would receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you, and you will be my witness” At times we give the enemy too much power and credit for our behavior or actions when in reality; our behavior comes from unmet needs, disappointments and hurt. Hurt people hurt people; they can’t see beyond their pain and the sad thing is they don’t even recognize it. They blame you and they switch the situations around to make you think it’s your fault. Then the enemy comes and brings guilt and shame to keep us in condemnation. Until we exercised the authority we have in Jesus and confront the shadows and exposed the mirage around us, we are not going to change positions. We have authority in us to tell the flesh to come unto submission. We have authority to tell the enemy take your hands off my family. We have the authority that comes from God to said. Enough!!!! As we get ready to move forward in what this new season may bring in our life. Remember who you are and who lives in you. For greater is He who is in me, The Holy Spirit lives in you. We have that power the day we walked away from the darkness and into the light of Jesus Chris. The day we accepted him into our hearts. Learn to walk in the authority you have from God. Don't allow the enemy to rob you or to try to keep you in a comfortable position. Remember who you are; a daughter of the king. Let's do this ToGetHer. Here we go into finishing strong. December 2021 Ivette Diaz-Yee

Hopelessness

definition: having no expectation of good or success, despair, feeling hopeless and alone.

Suicide is selfish for only thinking of self, it focuses on the past. Highlights the mistakes made. The regrets. The what ifs of life. Compares ours now with others around us. It makes us think it’s the easy way out. It's the way we try to put an end to a life lived in agony, despair, shame, and guilt. It plays with our minds and makes them seem that is the only way. The pain we carry is so heavy, it has taken our will to live. We are tired of trying. Over and over we enter the hamster wheel to end up in the same place. How do we get here? We ask, over and over. We rationalize the lies we had believed. “It will be better without me, one less problem for the family. Life for them will be better if I am out of the way”. Those were the words I heard that night, as I looked into the mirror and I saw death looking right back at me. Whispering to take the blade and cut my veins. Shame had robbed me, addiction had me bound. I didn't have the strength. I had tried to stop many times. Moved away, but in reality, all I had done was changed my zip code. Little did I know, I was full of hurt, abandonment, and unforgiveness. That night I was saved by my daughter knocking down the door from the bathroom. I do remember taking the blade and going directly to my veins, but I don't remember anything else. To find out years later, The Lord had an angel holding my hand. I was selfish. I was just thinking of myself. I was hopeless. I was lost. This is the 1st time I share this deep personal experience hope it helps someone else. You are not alone. You have a community to help you just reach out. In your agony cry out for HELP to the one that could hear you and heal you. “In my distress, I called to the Lord, and He answered me. From the depths of my grave, I called for help and you listened to my cry”. Jonah 2:2 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 Ivette 6/19/23

I see the absence of your presence

My lionesses thinking of you and missing you. I didn’t know I was going to miss you as much as I do, but I guess I was lying to myself. Life is not fare, but we had learn to walk the ups and down of it and live in the many times we Share the laughter and cry together. The memories we created together and the healing of that took place in our hearts. Deep inside I thought I’ll be seeing you around. But it never happen. Then I started to notice your absence. And then reality hit. She is gone. Her car not longer park in her space. Then I ask The Lord why do I miss her so much and He spoke this words in to my heart “ You see the absence of her presence” what do you mean..??? Flowers unkept, no tea around, wrong emails send, silence...today I even found a box with your name on it from the woman’s coffee talk invites. And then the other day I called and your name was still in the recording, and in the directory. This is what the Lord showed me. You brought a lot with your presence, not just your abilities but your presence itself. You brought strength, authority, possession, sassiness, determination, sound mind, and right judgment. A mother’s heart and sisters understanding , a warrior heart, and Accountability to those that needed them. I would for ever love you and will forever miss you. Until we see again Praying for you and remember you are the seed sower...!!! Love Ivette Diaz-Yee 2020

Father's Heart

My arms are wide open, come my child, I have the answer your heart is seeking for; I have the balm that heals the sick soul:I have the word that give life to dead bones, I have the power, no power can defeat. Your heart is whole,your mind is strong, your prayer is like a wisper of a trustworthy heart that is certain her creator is love. Know without a doubt your are my child. Know without a doubt I am your God. You know I am your Father and your my child; So dare to belive what can't be seen, dare to proclaim my promises, dare to share my love. Ruth G 6/19/23